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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

I thought I knew my Soul. I thought I could do it all alone. I wanted to do it by myself.
I faltered and fell on my face, hit the wall. Fell down a deep well. I'm still trying to get back up.
See, I thought I knew my Soul. I thought I could do it alone. Arrogance, you know can kill you.
I still want to, I crave it, and the hole gets harder to climb. I thought I knew my Soul. I thought I could do it all alone. Damn It, I still want to do it all alone, and I fall down a step.

19 comments:

Devika said...

Sounds a serious rant...last night I ranted quite a bit, only to put them on fire :)

& thinking of it -- If its about doing something for you, Only you can do it and doing it alone is the way...

But if you got your soul wrong, then more likely you will fall again -- my mind says...

rest, i shall pray for you, Lorraine :)

love,
dev

Brian Miller said...

great pic to go with...a confession we can all make at times. i try to grasp that illusion of control often.

Ken said...

Lorraine, your words ring true. We all struggle with the battle to be independent and unique, but sometimes we need the guidance and support of those around us. Well said. And the B&W is wonderful, too.

Cindybrown said...

Very well said! You are speaking to me directly these last couple of days. I agree with Devika when your soul is wrong you continue to fall. I have done it over and over again. The great part about that is God will keep picking you back up every time you ask for His help. Love to you, Cindy

RBroeker said...

Great shot, Lorraine. And the verse has a great line: "I thought I knew my soul." It shows: To know about something means to rule or to try to rule it. For me this line and the picture are okay by themselves.

To fall and to get up again, to feel down, but to rise as an indivual - this is worth another poem or haiga.

Best wishes
Ralf

Kathy said...

I still want to do it myself, too. And who knows when the next time you reach up and try to climb out...you just might make it!

Laure said...

i understand.

Lorraine said...

You put your rant on fire, boy I love you Dev lol

You always say the right thing Brian ;)

You are so right Ken, so very right :)

You are a loving person Cindy, thank you :)

How wise and smart you are Ralf, thank you :)

That is so encouraging, so you Kathy, thanks sweetie :)

Laure, and I know that, somewhat x

namaki said...

how those words fit to almost all of us !!!

Gillena Cox said...

There is a bit of a paradoxical issue entwined in this piece. We can never do it alone, there fore, we can never do it all alone; God guides us and his guidance is there for the asking even after we fall
much love
gillena

valbrussell said...

Yep, that's me alright. I say with much chagrin and the inability to change. To find myself in the words of other writers is fascinating. We are a tribe of similars I guess.

Lorraine said...

Merci Namaki...still trying to visit you...geesh j'ai de la difficulte a voir ton blog ;)

True, I'm afraid Gillena, and yet ...

We're a tribe all right lol I love that, a tribe who still wants to go it alone ;) Thanks Val!

Magyar said...

_The realism of the barbed wire (thoughts of personal barriers?)... and to go beyond, the passing through is always worth the try.
_m

Colette Amelia said...

I hear you are a fellow brain injured...I understand really what you are going through. but maybe it is time to find someone who helps to carry the burden.

take care

Lynne's Somewhat Invented Life said...

I hope you have partnered with God.

Michael Rawluk said...

You can make it. Failing makes the eventual doing all the sweeter.

Lorraine said...

oh yeah, the barbed wire, You're kind of brilliant, aren't Magyar..and thank you very much :)

Hey Colette Amelia, Imissed you, well I had a fractured skull, but that's not what cause my incredible fall from grace lol but your message is sweet and i appreciate it :)

Always, He Saved me, you know thanks Lynne

Michael, not in this lifetime my friend, but that's ok, you have to accept (see today's blog) LOL but thank you verymuch :)

The Dark Lord said...

Arrogance, pride.. we've been taught it comes before fall. Yet...
Some stand by their pride so much, they dont care for the falls and bruises that come their way.. And they are none the worse for it!!

Lorraine said...

Too true TDL, and the last time I fell, I didn't get up, and still I reaped something good ;)